I know understand what she meant year ago when she repeated over and over again she wanted a fresh start a new life where she could be herself. At first i thought it was ridiculous, but now I see that sometimes the world can just render a person so jaded that they would be driven to the point where they know they cannot be the same in that particular place and needed to move away. Perhaps all i need is a fresh start in my mind Maybe all i need really is to forget my past and my present for a while and focus on tomorrow. I want to be a better person. I want to be the kind of person my siblings can look up to and see a woman who is dedicated to Allah, dedicated to her family, and dedicated to the world and making it a better place. I want better not just for myself but for everyone around me. I’m tired of all this self loathing, self destructive tearing apart. From this point I gotta smile through the pain.I have to live my life with a smile or I might as well not live at all. IF the people I care about are ok and happy then what more can I ask for. Sure i may be in pain but why the hell should that matter so long as I can see their smiles and know that they are fine I can sleep at night.Nothing else should matter
My fresh start is here. Here is where I will rebuild myself on the inside from the ashes of nearly nothing.
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